I only write about things I know and you, obviously refused to know. About things I feel and sometimes things I wish I feel. I am not a writer of any issues, au contraire, I have none! Stop gasping. Yes, I have none. Even if I do, its not my main motivation to write. not that I couldn't assess or analyse my state of being but mostly its because I have shitloads of more interesting things to write about. The "on the surface kinda thing" you were referring to. So its shallow, so fuck me.
Writer with issues. now what do i mean by that? Well. I am not a homo to start with. Therefore I am not sexually repressed. And therefore, you won't catch me writing about sexual repression. Using metaphors and confusing symbolisms you aesthete call art! Note that I am writing to destroy aesthethics, not appreciate them.
And I think by not recognising a political stand is by itself taking a political stand! I mean, we have enough shit to deal with daily, what with concrete slabs falling on us, public goods offered by private sectors, rising inflation rate which is very apparent being covered up nicely by the central bank, misleading GDP reports, bullshit, propaganda we swallow everyday and cronies everywhere, how 'bout we run away... for a short while... we can always wake up and face the same shit next morning.
I am not here to fight, to stuff you with my idealistic views on how the country should be run! I will spare you off my idealogies. I am here to accept things. to accept that these are the disorders inevitable and mandatory if we want to keep on living. I am just a common man living beside your house, who will punch you or pat you in the back whichever applicable, in need of humour of any kind! Call me stereotypical, at least I'm real, I'm right here for you to take! And you...? Nevermind you... and, I love this country. Mostly because, I can't afford to live elsewhere. So why should i dread life, my existence in this country, wishing Malaysia could be more like America, UK or Australia. Malaysia is Malaysia, love it, hate it, its mine... its given to me...
And so what if Malaysians are made of bigots and racists, at least they don't come out in the open, not until people like you wanting writers to tell you the truth about things in this country. Well the truth is, truth is the truest form of bullshit promoted by writers who want to sell ideas stemmed from their insecurities, personal issues and their need to be accepted by the society! So stop searching for truth and stop applauding things, which only exist in some sick writers' state of mind.
Why do you need to dissect everything? Sometimes you don't need to pal. So I wrote a story, I have peeled it for you, "There is no onion for you to cry peeling", Na! Take it! Take it as it is! That’s something real pal! Don’t you think? You see I could've written a story about a goat named 'Pride' and a cow named 'Prejudice' and call it "Pride and Prejudice"- a row between the house of goat and the house of cow going against Pride and Prejudice's relationship. Making matters worse, both are married male which means they are engaging in an extra marital homosexual activity; the goat and the cow. But thats on the surface, what I really want to tell the people is about the anglo saxon capitalism model and why it will never work in our country, and how it will affect the moral structure of a country which will among others cause the spreading of STDs and a decrease in the Gross National Happiness! See it has all the essence, politics, sexual innuendos, sensitive issues such as race and sex and humour and repressed animals! Which would make you think I guess. Would you think? You would, I think! But how many would? How many would give a shit.
I think we are different you and I. I represent the average people, who have to take shit from other people daily for a RM150 raise in salary or even 3 days extra annual leave. Unlike you, my mama don't buy me cars, I have to pay for my own ride. Yes, we have to work for food, for lodging, for a living, not for paying that overpriced MAS ticket to backpack in South America after watching "Motorcycle Diaries" or New Zealand after the "Lord of The Rings" trilogy. Yes we are all still trapped with consumerisme issues. We have not reach your level of Post Materialism. Yet.
Yes, probably I am not as intelligent as you, you are the real thing, the real shit, the real people with real license to be a writer, probably because you are depressed, your whole life is a complete tarpit of misery, what with the shrink and the brickfields lifestyle, and plus you have travelled the world… see things from different angles making everything you say, every single thing you are philosophically opposed to, carries profound weight…
Needless to say I am not and believe me; a lot of us are not. A lot of us are just stupidity of the highest order to you. The mere mortal fuckwits at the bottomest of the human hierarchy.
A lot of us haven't got the balls, or maybe rich Tan Sri father, well-connected family or trust fund money to fall back to. We are on our own. We do this and we take shit, at our own will and then we figured,"Hey I might as well write something about it!"
And thus, the things, stuff which are well on the surface that you conveniently label as 'weak'. But at least, its there for you to grab as it is. Its probably banal and it has no layers but it is what it is, it doesn't talk about A but it means B! Its pretty simple really. You get it, you get it, you don't then probably you are the 20% of the elite intelligent group whom I may never be able to relate with. Ever!
Writer with issues. now what do i mean by that? Well. I am not a homo to start with. Therefore I am not sexually repressed. And therefore, you won't catch me writing about sexual repression. Using metaphors and confusing symbolisms you aesthete call art! Note that I am writing to destroy aesthethics, not appreciate them.
And I think by not recognising a political stand is by itself taking a political stand! I mean, we have enough shit to deal with daily, what with concrete slabs falling on us, public goods offered by private sectors, rising inflation rate which is very apparent being covered up nicely by the central bank, misleading GDP reports, bullshit, propaganda we swallow everyday and cronies everywhere, how 'bout we run away... for a short while... we can always wake up and face the same shit next morning.
I am not here to fight, to stuff you with my idealistic views on how the country should be run! I will spare you off my idealogies. I am here to accept things. to accept that these are the disorders inevitable and mandatory if we want to keep on living. I am just a common man living beside your house, who will punch you or pat you in the back whichever applicable, in need of humour of any kind! Call me stereotypical, at least I'm real, I'm right here for you to take! And you...? Nevermind you... and, I love this country. Mostly because, I can't afford to live elsewhere. So why should i dread life, my existence in this country, wishing Malaysia could be more like America, UK or Australia. Malaysia is Malaysia, love it, hate it, its mine... its given to me...
And so what if Malaysians are made of bigots and racists, at least they don't come out in the open, not until people like you wanting writers to tell you the truth about things in this country. Well the truth is, truth is the truest form of bullshit promoted by writers who want to sell ideas stemmed from their insecurities, personal issues and their need to be accepted by the society! So stop searching for truth and stop applauding things, which only exist in some sick writers' state of mind.
Why do you need to dissect everything? Sometimes you don't need to pal. So I wrote a story, I have peeled it for you, "There is no onion for you to cry peeling", Na! Take it! Take it as it is! That’s something real pal! Don’t you think? You see I could've written a story about a goat named 'Pride' and a cow named 'Prejudice' and call it "Pride and Prejudice"- a row between the house of goat and the house of cow going against Pride and Prejudice's relationship. Making matters worse, both are married male which means they are engaging in an extra marital homosexual activity; the goat and the cow. But thats on the surface, what I really want to tell the people is about the anglo saxon capitalism model and why it will never work in our country, and how it will affect the moral structure of a country which will among others cause the spreading of STDs and a decrease in the Gross National Happiness! See it has all the essence, politics, sexual innuendos, sensitive issues such as race and sex and humour and repressed animals! Which would make you think I guess. Would you think? You would, I think! But how many would? How many would give a shit.
I think we are different you and I. I represent the average people, who have to take shit from other people daily for a RM150 raise in salary or even 3 days extra annual leave. Unlike you, my mama don't buy me cars, I have to pay for my own ride. Yes, we have to work for food, for lodging, for a living, not for paying that overpriced MAS ticket to backpack in South America after watching "Motorcycle Diaries" or New Zealand after the "Lord of The Rings" trilogy. Yes we are all still trapped with consumerisme issues. We have not reach your level of Post Materialism. Yet.
Yes, probably I am not as intelligent as you, you are the real thing, the real shit, the real people with real license to be a writer, probably because you are depressed, your whole life is a complete tarpit of misery, what with the shrink and the brickfields lifestyle, and plus you have travelled the world… see things from different angles making everything you say, every single thing you are philosophically opposed to, carries profound weight…
Needless to say I am not and believe me; a lot of us are not. A lot of us are just stupidity of the highest order to you. The mere mortal fuckwits at the bottomest of the human hierarchy.
A lot of us haven't got the balls, or maybe rich Tan Sri father, well-connected family or trust fund money to fall back to. We are on our own. We do this and we take shit, at our own will and then we figured,"Hey I might as well write something about it!"
And thus, the things, stuff which are well on the surface that you conveniently label as 'weak'. But at least, its there for you to grab as it is. Its probably banal and it has no layers but it is what it is, it doesn't talk about A but it means B! Its pretty simple really. You get it, you get it, you don't then probably you are the 20% of the elite intelligent group whom I may never be able to relate with. Ever!
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